November 29, 2022

Picture a cute, young Bella Throne. Then, sprinkle in a dash innocence, a pinch of love, and accidentally spill in a gallon of hyper sexual urges of a girl turning of age who wants to explore what her body can do and how others react to her sexual awakening and awareness. I tried so much to keep her whole, but when she suddenly legally comes of age, who am I to stand in her way?

All right sorry august ends 2019 this yeah i really know how to explain this one well uh kind of a weird subject i guess i was like helping take care or mentoring or something a girl and she was this kind of i don’t know she must have been like a troubled girl or something she did she’s like run away from home a lot or something i’m not trying to like corral her in

Now it’s like a profession or something like that i don’t really know it’s not gonna some said any of this but thing anyway she was kind of okay at first like redhead i think of like a young bella thorne i guess right ahead you know cute enough all that stuff she’s kind of innocent and then like progressively like she kept she was growing up like right in front of

My eyes i guess was kind of the thing like all of a sudden like she was like from like super young to like we were out doing this thing or at the arcade and she started like getting interested in boys but didn’t think she wasn’t but then i was like yes she is and like i’m like another time we’re at like an arcade i’m shooting like some sort of there’s some sort of

Two person arcadia or there’s the two guns and you can each get one well there’s this old-school one where i put a quarter in it or whatever on the right side and you start shooting some you’re shooting like balls like wiffle balls or something with the guns into like little holes and then it was baseball so you would get a homerun and it was a really rare thing to

Do and he just kept doing in this fuss if you can was hard to do so i got like a couple home runs i was like a big deal then my friend robert scotties was a older dude in real life was there and he he wanted to do it with me so we both started playing this thing and he stopped some guy from jumping in because he put our credits and i slapped his hand around away

Kind of not a too aggressive way and i was kind of weird paying that and know a lot of us something i remember like she was like starting to dress like or something i was like oh like how do i stop this like you know how to worry like guide her away from you know all sudden like using her womanhood to satisfy your curiosity i kept thinking gosh like i don’t want

Her to get in trouble at home and then like it started occurring to me like me being a male around her it’s gonna look really bad if she has sex with somebody or something or gets naked in front of somebody the space of sort of sexual behavior and by default me being the guy it’s probably gonna get pegged with it somehow which is you know not always necessarily

The thing that happens it’s just society looks at the guy like hey you know you probably did something and then there’s always the risk of they could easily a girl could easily say something and by default you know even if they make it up you know the guys probably gonna get picked for it you know cuz that’s just the default way we look at you know the sexes it’s

A sexist society in that way it’s not always that way a girl can rape a guy i’m sure like the girl can do things and then just say something and oh he touched me didn’t it and then let’s he said she said and she’s probably gonna win that one anyway at some point in my dream i can’t remember all the details or really how to explain it in one of its floody but she

We decided to go out of the little amusement park down to like this seaworld s kind of thing where it’s like a deck out with a cage and all this and then oh yeah she pretends she’s like britney spears or something to get into this face and like flirts with the security guy to get through and says that i’m cool so i get to go with her so she’s she cares about me

A lot i know that she wants me there and i’m just trying to keep her like from doing this stuff like in the most caring way i can because it’s you know it’s her right i’m being someone that’s you know familiar with that you know wine of business you know one hand it’s her right to do what she wants on the other hand i’m like oh i don’t want to get in trouble also

And you know i’m not trying to be an accomplice to this i i think i’m really caring about her and anyway he’s a saying she goes a little dugout thing and then decides you know she gets like a quick pass i think i got kind of walked around or whatever and she goes she starts using her woman you know nests she starts like kind of stripping and dancing and grinding

On guys and the guys lose their at this point i realized at that moment at the very moment she turned 18 and i’m like like here we go here’s this whole thing now at this point she becomes kind of like rambunctious lea defiant and like sure her hormones are blasting off like crazy and she’s having all the you know she wants to be free she wants to make her own

Decisions she wants to do whatever she wants she’s tired of people telling her what i totally totally i sympathize with that i’m trying to work with her on that at some point we’ll go back to doug i hear at some point it probably after or people probably before i don’t remember we’re on the parking lot and there’s like a helicopter going by it’s nighttime we’re in

This giant league mall parking that it’s like circle eight and she’s having words with them and they’re threatening us and i’m like dude i remember what i called her like brittany or something i don’t know i told her like you don’t you know you’re gonna get a shot like don’t be so aggressive i don’t know and check his little toy tank i remember this little plastic

Tank and she’s hitting this button and i knew like wait that button shoots like should missile i thought and just shoots with us she’s try to shoot the helicopter oh my god this is like this is huge trouble like this is that’ll get us killed on sight this is stuff will go to present for and i’m like i’m not i’m not to help in this girl not trying to do that i’m

Trying to stop her and she’s hitting it hits like kind of lighten up but not really working it’s this little toy like thinking and kind of in and out of my dream like what does this thing so small i know i needed to say like i take it for a night maybe hit the button for whatever and i’m like because this shoot like just at the ground or something but then like

I guess putting it there i remember what happens but anyway i can thing she’s you know there’s guys or soldiers to something that are just like all over her like there go they’re taking advantage of her really bad and all this sound like you know trying to get over there so i’m like i don’t remember what her name is but i’m like okay there’s a spot right by the

First guard and i’m like i’m only at least see her make sure she isn’t you know get you know lose her virginity you had a whole that kind of but he got a thing you know i was actually really trying to care for her like i really didn’t want this to happen i didn’t want her to her to disappoint her parents and i can’t represent thinking about her her dad you know

And all that at some point it finally like i think they get pretty close and at some point we’re back in this room me and her and she’s we’re talking and she’s like just undressing like in front of me and i’m like oh god i’m trying not to look there’s that whole battle okay like okay you know what she’s 18 she could do what she wants she has her rights and then

I’m thinking oh well she’s really pretty and it’s not that bad if i looked a little bit now because she is of age and only then and i knew there was the line but then at the same time i was like no no you know you don’t be professional don’t look so i’m not looking and then she’s like changing and then just like laying in bed or something she’s like telling me

She’s hurt or something like what do you mean you’re hurt and she says she says there’s something wrong or like what is it and i like i’m not looking you know cuz whatever you know being respectful and she’s like even legitimate pain like that and like what happened i’m trying to get her to tell me so she doesn’t want to tell me so she says this other guy who’s

Gay i guess and i’m like trying to explain her like it’s okay like you could tell me i want you to be safe like just if you if you want to show me that’s fine and i’m thinking maybe it’s like a vaginal thing like she’s hurt there maybe she had sex and it didn’t go over well well she had some sort of abscess on like the back of her thigh and i was like okay let’s

Let’s let’s get you fix i and i’m trying to find help for like i you know she’s got some sort of thing i’m trying to huh i’m also like every second bus trying to make sure she’s not everybody to at some point it finally happens i get some sort of like snapchat videos or something and that’s her just going down the line it’s just like she’s outside and it’s like

It’s party environment and she’s just letting giving in to her you know to her sexual energy and she’s like people are like you know she’s finally getting penetrated here for a second people are coming all over her all this finished it oh my god great so you know i lost the battle of the virgin alarm poor thing but uh you know it was a weird when there’s a lot

Of hate i mean if i had total nightmare mind i was trying to protect her from herself and you know trying to protect us from that i tried to protect myself from being a part of it you know so weird nightmare there was a lot more to it i feel like it was a lot more fluid but i don’t know i can’t really remember right now but yeah little bella thorne girl getting

Getting the d as much as i tried to stop it i was being honorable in it so anybody that happens accidentally come across my video logs here don’t don’t give me okay you know what i was thinking it was completely innocent on my part so anyway it’s all made up anyway i figure the dream was just you know that that stress dream again you know sometimes when you have

A dream about sex it’s not really about sex it’s like you know maybe you want some sort of other companionship or you know a pat it’s how dreams work i don’t know why i feel bad for this bro should never regulus did this whatever weird nightmares i don’t know

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Trazodone Nightmares: How to Stop a Girl from Fucking (Ep6) By DiaryOfAMadPerson